How to let it go?

I just can't... It is too hard for me to do this...
But then if i rethink... Sigh...

Ohh man... I can't take it anymore...
I can't show that feelings but also i dowan to keep it to myself...
What should i do now?
I'm confused myself...:(

Tmr going back to school eventhough there is no school....
Have to act like I'm okay when I'm not...
Have to have fun when i dowan too...
Have to do this but... I myself can't prevent it myself...

I just can't change anything as all of this is a reality...
Why do i always feel this way??:(

He ignored me just now....
But whhy???

Hate it just now!!!!!!1

Back blogging!!:)

Firstly i gonna say a few things abt me now...
Firstly i am...
-sad
-frustrated
-angry
-sleepy
-and most of all feelings damn it lonely...


Why sad??
-Cuz of several stuffs...
One is that he didnt reply to mosrt of my texts...
Two,he still didnt reply to my messages...
Thirdly is the same thing...
And continously i gonna repeat the whole thing back so just imagine i did that...


Why frustrated??
-Cuz of several stuffs too...
One,i still remeber about yersterday which was a disaster for me...
Two,i hate them...
They made my life miserable...
Who???!!!(no need to know)
I hate yesterday's date....
He still didnt reply!!!
Arghhhh!!!


Why angry??
I hate them!!!
They make me sooo damn angry...
See wad had happen ytd...
Cause of them i had it all on me...
I just wish they would leave us alone at a time...
And one more thing...
I hope they would go there faster as they are stealing him friom me...


Why sleepy??
I slept at 0530am yesterday...
Thinking abt wad had happen...
I just cant sleep...
Hope that he's okay though...
sob...sob...


Why feeling so lonely???
He still didnt reply...
sob...sob...
I miss him...



Okay enough abt that...
Lets tok about today...

Went out w bestie today...
Ate at pastamania...
lets see she ate creamy chicken...
I ate hmmmm... wad was it again??
I forgot... Hehehehehehehe...


Then we went to comics connection...
She bought SHINee's poster,bag and 1 more i forgot...
I bought her the strap and the fan...


Then  went to take neoprint...
Lost abt $20 on it as the printer broke down...
Plus the angmoh very irritated...
took the rollercoaster ride but then the angmoh......
Went to starbucks(PP) but there was a lot of people so..
We decided to go to siglap starbucks...


Reach siglap starbucks which i was supposed to go such a long time ago...
Sat there,drank our favourite drink but then...
There was too much chocolate and the woman puts too much water...
And it became watery... Not nice...
No mood to tok and camwhore...
Sat there for an  hour....
Then decided to go home w our stomache...
Sad...sad...
Sob..sob....

Back blogging!!!(:

I'm sad right now!!!
Wanna know why?
Dun ask!!!
Cux i hate to tok abt it...
Only my bestie knows about it...


Okay i am from muy grandma house today...
From abt 3pm until now...
SAD LA SIA!!!!


Tmr public holiday...
Is he free???
I wonder...
He seems soo ... when i saw him the last time...
Which was today... hehhehe


I am happy that he got to come back but also kinda...
...............................................


Arghhhh!!! if like this hor...
I think no need meet la...
Very troublesome...
He busy... then still i busy...
SIAN!!!
I miss him....


Hahahahahahah...
I keep toking abt myself...
Btw sorry got no mood and...
No thought of toking abt anything....
Too sad to tok abt anything...
):

Back Blogging

Today as usual...
School then remedial...
Remedial ended at 0415...
Bus came went home...
Now posting thi post...
Feel like sleeping though...(:


I dunnno how i should feel but..
Sometimes it feel kinda weird to be there...
They seems nice bt i dunno...
They make my life more openly...
They are just right for me...
They seems so cheerful...
But me i am restless and very random to be precisely..
Should i go???
Will they...........
This is sooo frustating...
Wad should i do??
Who are they u may ask???
I dun think you should know abt it...



I got nothing much to say though...
So thats it for now then...
Toodles..(:

I got lots to post today...
-sepak takraw
-today


SEPAK TAKRAW

Went to the bedok sports hall to support them...
In the first match,bedok view won us....
Second and third match, bv lost their concentration and we won them by 2-1...
Finally changkat became the champion of the national teams!!!
Changkat Changi Secondary School B Division Sepak Takraw Rulez!!!!
Oh ya,1 more thing...
I early lost my voice due to shouting too much...Hahahaha...
It is too support my school!!! Luckily we won!!!
Hahahaha,bv became second in the national champions...
Hahahahaha...
Our school, also got their pics in the BERITA HARIAN and THE STRAITRS TIMES(sat,24/4)
Go and see ya...At the sports section...

TODAYS SCHEDULE

Went to grandma's house earlyt in thr morning actually not morning...
It is around 2 that i went out of the house...
Then i reach grandma house arnd 3...
Wow, it took 1 hour...hahahaha
Then i saw him...but he had to go to camp immediately...
Saddend...
He said he wont be coming back next week...):

Keep getting weird chats on facebook....

Ohh forget it...
Today school was as usual...

~First period was MT!!!!
-.-Damn boring!!!

~2nd was GEOG!!!!
:l Still can survive....

~3rd is dnt... Hahahahaha...
:) Slack w tingting arnd half an hour then went back to class...
Hahahaahhahahaha...[:

RECESS KNE BUSTED!!! HAIYAOH BY THE CANTEEN PERSON IN CHARGE OF APPETIZERS...

~4th period: ENGLISH!!!
DIE again cuz tis week is my duty to erase the whiteboard then..
the  teacher(u guys knw it) ask me to do it soooo paiseh...

~5th period: AMATHS!!!
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! Teacher nvr come and no teacher come relief....
Waaaa so syoik!!! Listen music then got play taptap oso....

~6th period: MATHS!!!
Okokokla...
Cuz thought of escaping out but then relief teacher come in liao then cannot alr...
Darn!! So sat there do nothing... Listen to tingting misic cuz phone w aisyah...
Sian...


                                                                      AFTER SCHOOL!!!!

Went for lunch...
Had the japanese chicken don(the same as rachel)...
While tingting had the...was it burger or pizza??? I forgot...(:
0215 to 0300 or 0245 something like that went for dnt remedial...
Had nothing to do... Rachel went to sleep while tingting listens to her ipod...
And me... i did nothing;walk around like no one's buiness...
At about 0400 or 0415,when to meet mum at ep...

                                                                    AFTER DNT!!!!!

Meet mum at banquet...
Eat at banquet and saw an accidnt at han river...
There were 3 fire engine and lots of fire fighters...
I still dunno whats the cause but there was smell of smoke....
Walk around until we decided to go bedok intrchange to do some "shopping"...
Bought this and that... Until i went to this fashion to see how much the shirt cost....
It costs $31.... I'm sooo gonna buy that...
Then went to comics connection... Got to go in for a while as it gonnna close....
Saw ss501 poster and saw the price $29.90...
Told myself... Save $100 then can buy all those stuffs or jux get the $ from mum...
Told mum; She say she'll think abt it but i'm sure she gonna buy it from me.... Hahahahahahahaha....



Wow!!! Suchh a long post tonight... Saddend have to go and log off frm blogger... Cuz my mum...
Haiyah... Tmr i'll post again... Abt my day...


p.s.: Happy Birthday to you!!!(20/04)

I hate life!!! I just hate it!!!

Why must dis happen to me!? Only me???!!!!
It is as if no one cares about me anymore... Hmph...
But sometimes i wonder why only me?? Why not my siblings???
MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME AND ME ONLY!!!!!!!


oKAY forget abt it.....


i came home at about 8 plusplus...
Happyhappy listenign to ss501 songs thenn....
Jengjengjeng....
It was wad i mention before...

Okay now abt me at my grandma house... Okay laaaaaa..
Very bored....
Lucky someone sms me... Huuuu... Im safe(:
Safe frm??? Dying of boredom...
Hmmmmmm....
Lets seeee...

i went up and down up and down non-stop...
it was soo hot  that i went to the room for aircon.. hahahahaha
But he's not there!!!! Saddend!!!

Baby cousin so cute!!!
Got to cuddle with her for a while then she needs to go for milky...
Hahahahaha... Thats my story at my grandma's house...
Sooo damn bored...

Gona go to grandmma house soon so i better start blogging first...


HAve to wake up early to go to grandma house for the tahlil...
Sian....):
I'm actually very lazy to go...
But if i dun go then i have no chance of seeing my irritating brother...

arghhhh sure to be home at around 10 to11 plus...
And tmr i'm schooling......
Somemore ont ue is syad's birthday but he'll niot be here for us to celebrate though..
Saddend...

Shit i have eyt to do my dnt arghhh!!!
Confirm kena scolded....
Wth lahhh the teacher nvr accept!!
I do so nice alr still cannot...
Haiyah!!! Hate the teacher so much!!!!

Okay thats all folks...
Later i post again if i gto the time after coming home from......
GRANDMA HOUSE!!!!

(:(:(:

Finally I get to blog!!(:

I had a super great time today!!(:


I  the morning,no wait it is in the afternoon...
I went out to go to somewhere with angchel....
Wad fun day we had!!! I would love to do that again...
I tink she would love to do that again...(:


Around the evening, it is such a long ride from the place i was to bugis...
My butt was hurting sitting at the chair...
Luckily "he" sms me or else i'll be dying of boredom...
I'm soooo lucky!!(:

Wad else shld i say???
I dunno...
Thats all for now i guess...I'll post summore tmr...
After i get back from my grandma's house...
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...
(: