How to let it go?

I just can't... It is too hard for me to do this...
But then if i rethink... Sigh...

Ohh man... I can't take it anymore...
I can't show that feelings but also i dowan to keep it to myself...
What should i do now?
I'm confused myself...:(

Tmr going back to school eventhough there is no school....
Have to act like I'm okay when I'm not...
Have to have fun when i dowan too...
Have to do this but... I myself can't prevent it myself...

I just can't change anything as all of this is a reality...
Why do i always feel this way??:(